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Sometimes things don't need a title

I have NO Idea where this post will go, but let's give her a solid try.  I'm literally not even sure where this thought or what this may turn into. I'm just in the need to escape and write, so here she goes. I guess we'll call this a story time post 👀 Lately, I have found it very difficult to want to get close to just about anyone. Men in particular. Whether it's because of past history, I just have zero desire to, I'm not quite sure. Most of my attempts of trying to get close to any male sort of figure has horribly back fired. The unfortunate thing is I'm becoming less and less interested in dating, or even entertaining the idea of dating. I find it almost annoying at this point when anyone even asks. It's not their fault. I just truly have little to no desire to make conversation. Dress up, make conversation,(awkward usually), feel like there are expectations at the end of the date. I don't want anything to do with it. Now, you may be
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We Don't Change, We just get older

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 When Observing My Surroundings I think...tooo much. I've been thinking, a lot lately. Scary, I know. We all do from time to time. If you have advice on how not to think all the time, I'm all ears. However, upon noticing throughout my 31 years of life. I know not ancient, but old enough to compare experiences, interactions, and situations. I know none of this probably makes any sense, and it may not make any sense by the end of this,but. This is my observation and complete opinion. Lately, I have been having a lot of life thoughts. Where am I going? How am I growing? What is my life long goal? Kind of life's purpose questions, etc. Without trying to be too depressing, whilest thinking of these things. I have a tendency to end up feeling like I've failed in some way or another. Which then leads to, who do I ACTUALLY have in my life? will I end up alone? This then triggers a complete whirl wind of thoughts that leads to a very depressive mind set. So, as you can
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The American Dream

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Your 31, why don't you have a husband and kids??? Well, everyone. To answer this very complicated but simple question. We have paths that we take in life. A fork in the road if you will, sort of choices. There is a sign in the middle that says 'this way to a better life' and 'this way to also a good life, but could have been better'. You see this picture I'm describing? We all have those moments we can sit back and think of, and say that's where I took the wrong left, or wrong right.  Yea, we have all had those smack your self in the forehead, patrick star moments. Back to the main thought, why am I not married? Quite simple, I have not met the right man for the blessed occasion. Missed turn number one in life: was supposed to go to school in Indiana at Hyles-Anderson Christian College. My calling, and drive was pulled in this direction so strongly. I did not go, why? fear. The main drive in any decision. I stayed and dated a man who was manipulat
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